Of all the rambles, frustrations, dilemmas, and unwillingness.. plus a little but of ego, distrust, weather, family and internet. I have already started my course, which is the bachelor of psychology in Malaysia.
Why am i still here and why am I taking this course? For what i think maybe it is because my mom likes to control me. No dating, sleep at 11pm. Be her slave. My brother told my dad that US is very far, it is not cheap, i might change my decision and blah. He dint even voice out anything until the very last day, he talk so much. Of course, i was really really very angry at first. Just feel like stabbing him. I did so much of research, i called and met up so many counsellors and the decision was made. Just before the day i wanted to enrol to ADP Inti college, my dad said : why not you try doing psychology first, then after that, you can go to US or Australia if you still wants to study. Actually it is not much of my mom's fault coz she really supports me at first. I am just very angry and pissed off why she LOVES to control me. (she just came into my room and see what i do, and somehow forced me to sleep.)
At first it was Shanghai. then Taiwan, then US, and Australia, and again, US. For a person who really hates to stay at home especially being controlled and to sleep with someone who snores as loud as a gong, totally no privacy at all.. i dont know what should i say now. happy to be an optimist or sad because i was treated this way?
After much consideration, i just accept it as destiny. different people different life even if you are living under one roof. i just wish that HELP can shift to some jungle asap so i can rent a room there and get all the peace. No more sending brother to school which i hate hate hate hate HATE!! the most!!! at least it is fair enough for me, i take that as no difference as going overseas.
I hope i am happy taking psychology now, (definitely not the bus thingy) and this is not the wrong decision. At first i sob because there was hope for me to take biology and drama and suddenly... but thank god, psychology has bio psychology and i love this subject so much. Luckily Dr Hera wasnt a boring lecturer like Mr Franklin the fai chai.

You might not understand what im writing coz i write whatever that comes out of my mind first. and im so lazy to check hehe. ask me if you dont understand, this time i will tell. i promise.
I dont think it is nice telling this to everyone but i still want to tell before i go koo koo.
I hope i didnt hide anything from my friends now. i think i confess it all. =)