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Thursday, September 28, 2006

MooMooDoink;

All these.. describes my feelings right now. It just came in a sudden.. my ilham~ haha. okays. i copied some from TVB.. cause these days those songs are just spinning in my mind and it's just so same with my situation now. hehe

Love?? Some sort of 'what is love' or whatever hahaha..
Everyone wants to realize who is the real love that he/she shouldn’t missed in life..When you've bumped into love. You will sooner realize,Love,Gives us hurt. gives us tears. gives us laughter. gives us memories.. which is very hard to fade in our mind.

My Situation..
Before this feeling has happened..I didn't know you would come..I am carrying a relaxing and calm mood.But uncontrollably in my heart..A light has been lit...for the attraction that I cannot have.I keep fighting and struggling but I can't bear it..When his hand touches me..I think that we are just friend. I will never have a right to feel hurt.Forget that love injured my heart.This made me believe that this feeling cannot be evaded...Why are you so unhappy?! you could not change the conclusion even if you are unhappy.I know,if i take the wrong steps,for love, there's no way to explain..At the end, all five(5 you know!!) will feel the pain..Who dares to continue?? I tried to keep our memories and lock it in the bottom of my heart.and love is getting deeper everyday, so deep that could not see the bottom..Stay apart from you for a whort while,expectedly I could not hold you tightly since the day we seperated..It's hard to make you stay beside me. i know.. When i recalled 1 day when we are together, my heart throb and i get nervous.Lying on the lawn,under the same SKY, you made me discover that the SKY is blue... i wish i could go back to the past and hold your hands tight. Eventhough you hurt me, eventhough the scar still remain in my heart. but.. i am already deep deep in love. you must know, no matter how long it takes. i will wait for you. eventhough it's very competitive..

We have not seen each other for months. and today when we meet each others. you put a smile on your face and was trying to put a smile on my face too but i failed to. i regret that i didnt smile when i see you. You smile plus your big goo goo eyes are so sweet that made me so in love with you and.. you are just so cute! I love your smile =) Think of me!

MooMooDoink ♥
11:56 PM

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

MooMooDoink;

The reason i call Sky as Sky is because Sky loves the Sky that's why Sky is named Sky. And everytime i see the Sky i will think of Sky. haha everytime there is a beautiful cloud matching with the Sky. i will think of how wonderful is the Sky.
I think Sky doesnt want to reveal Sky is Sky. So, it's a secret. =)

MooMooDoink ♥
7:03 PM

MooMooDoink;

Yesterday...
Yesterday was my dad birthday.. we planned to buy him a new phone or a PDA phone but at last, we gave him a card. We are filial~~ cause he asked us not to buy. haha. okay, at home. when i wanted to get ready, i saw thing really bad.. my burberry shirt!!! 3 dots of white paint on it and.. 2 little holes on it..MAMA~~ now i have to wear the red one.. headaching..
Scene in Restaurant Happy Vally..
Okay, no jam and before that i got lots of phone call 'massive jam'!! We found our seat and.. we talk for awhile.. and all.. and suddenly, they served my brother a glass of wine. Ian snatched it and drink a little and as what i didnt even predict, he loves it. and i wanted to try some.. so i drank at all the half glass. my my. it's so... undescribable. then we ordered more more and more before the food is served. and suddenly i started feeling dizzy and not very good. so i stopped and kept on drinking chinese tea. my hand so shiver.. haha. oops, forget to mention. this is actually a very grand dinner because my dad's boss's mom's birthday falls on the same day too. so my dad like erm.. celebrate together. after that, everyone went drunk. even we started to order whiskey and brandy.. my face was soooo red.. and my dad went.. simply talk and bullied some women there.. funny that we laugh our head off.. come back home. omg! cannot sleep.. then dont know in what condition. i felt so dizzy again then poop! slept. story end.

Today..
OMG. i dont know what happened to me. my head is still aching and my back.. like i've carried a 10kg thing and walk 100km..having a lil belly tummy too a guess.. okay, admit that i am too lazy to go to school today and school will be definitely boring so i decided to hide myself from my mom and skip school~! hehe.. i slept till 10.30am and i thought it's already 1-2pm.. blur me. Once i switch on the computer and once i went into friendster. Heart break into pieces. as i saw the news.. 'Jessica Hsuen is leaving TVB'...and she's gonna leave her top actress post! okay, she wants to live in the enviroment without TVB..maybe this is a good thing for her, maybe i should be happy as well. but as far as i am concern.. i knew that.. it's gonna be a hard time for her and for me cause i wont be seeing her in any series with TVB actors and actresses and some entertainment show..How could this be?! and while i was reading this. the song Dont cry for me Argentina was playing. It's like Dont cry for me Carmen lim was playing..As i am not related with her so of course i didnt cry. ahhaa. just sad.

MooMooDoink ♥
11:03 AM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

MooMooDoink;

Carmen lim.. you are being too competitive these days..

the angel side of CLKM says..
everyone have their own talent and skills.. god is very fair.

the devil side of CLKM says..
We have to learn more. The person who get all the benefits is me!

so so.. who can tell me which is the right way? okay okay, i just want to win and show to others that i am not useless.. But how many i can compete? there are so many people out there which is better than me 100000 times.. who to compete? driving me crazy..

Another story... ( nothing is related with the above one, just lazy to post another one )
Sky is right. why should i always follow people steps? and follow in whatever decision they made? silly right? When people around me are sad or having problems. why should i accompany them when they dont even bother me when i am having problems. Why should i do something stupid with people to entertain them when they dont even want to entertain me when i need some entertainment. why should i do everything to satisfied them when they dont even help me a lil.. why should i follow them when they dont even bother to follow one of my steps. and why should i listen to them when they dont even listen to me?!
Sky: Do whatever you want and make whatever decision you want. Why do you have to follow people and make life so sad. When you dont feeling like doing it. Dont do. When you felt like doing it but all my friends are not willing. Do it as long as you think you are happy. Do whatever that make you happy but not your friends who control your destiny.
Me: Sigh, it takes time.

MooMooDoink ♥
11:17 PM

MooMooDoink;

yesterday again. suddenly i have the desire to write this before i head to slumberland. hehe.. around 11.30.. Sky texted me.. and we texted with each other till 12. then the phone line expired. Sky last text message was..'can you call me. i want to chat with you but my line is going to expired'. and i called sky. From 12am we chat will 1.30am.. I talked very softly and .. not my style-lah! we talked about politics? haha and school life and character. psychology also.. haha.. and meeting each other in jati diri.. and also our past. hehe very fun. then when we are halfway talking about DBSK, du du du du..... then i never call sky back.. enjoyed talking with you.. so nice.. hehe

MooMooDoink ♥
6:53 PM

MooMooDoink;

Talking about yesterday..... now my muscle hurts...><''
Yesterday was indeed a boring day. my mom woke me up and she wanted me to follow her to the market but when i am halfway brushing my teeth, ian came and inform me that my mom went to market already~ nevermind. i switched on the computer. boredom!!! i've nothing to do. Actually i've planned to cut my hair yesterday but i am too bored till i am too lazy. but when i chat with jiayi, all in a sudden. i misses 1utama so much! and she mentioned 1utama! what a relief~! problem occured. i admit that i dont hav e the sense of dressing. but when i open my cupboard.. i saw the mng tank shirt and i planned to match it with the topshop shorts + mcky's shoe. its kinda weird! super weird. anyway, whatever..then when i was halfway getting ready, dad called me to type a quotation. and i have problems printing.. and jiayi called.. i thought her cousin was already there. its no good wanting people to wait for me and we dont even know each other! so.. i did all the rushing. i placed the necklace on the table and i forget to take along. and once we are in 1utama, jiayi mentioned about the necklace. when we are in the toilet, there are no tissues there so this jiayi go and steal the babies and less fortunate's toilet tissue. her thief face with her thief action. too bad. no camera~ then we went to beauty fitness. the man elwin. once i saw him.. i stunned! i actually dreamt of him few days ago. and i think due to the jam and all the coincidence. i felt very tired and blur in a sudden. i was dreaming and .. i actually cant remember what am i doing that time. all the embarrased things i supposed. very tired now. to be continued.. sleep time!

MooMooDoink ♥
6:30 PM

MooMooDoink;

Today is the day! I am meeting up with my swimming pool aunty, cheras aunty Hong Kong aunty, Uncle Micheal and also the cute and adorable Jin Han~ I just like meeting up with them. They are simple fun.. I always laugh my head off or gain lotsa knowledge everytime going out with them. and also get to sit on some luxurious cars. But 1 thing is, the driver will be driving and it's super slow~~ So today we meet up in swimming pool Yee Yee's house and all hop into 1 car. and my mom drove us there cause she know how to go. Our first destination was subang, we went to visit 1 very old granny.. 92 years old.. and we tried to fix that cacated printer.. for.. 30 mins! but the printer seems to be very stubborn! then we quit.. andbla bla bla.. inhale lotsa fresh air. hehe.. then it's 12pm! we then head to Raintree Club in Ampang. This club, have damn alot of guai lou.. which made me sooo... but they are all with family.. We ate our branch and off we go swimming~! Due to giving too much of wrong information and all.. i dont know why, i am like so blur and all.. my mood wasnt that good. so i dive into the water and swim as hard as i could. every style.. even butterfly! and we played with Jin Han this adorable GUY. haha..The club is fantastic, infact, it's marvelous and superb! they have squash, tennis court ( indoor and outdoor ) badminton court, playground, gym, bowling and the most important of all. swimming pool~! i must convince my dad to join this member! but nevermind.. Cheras Yee Yee said that she will join and we have to go .. often! Weee~~!~!~! i dont mind man!! After swimming, i felt super doper exhausting and dizzy.. my heart is throbbing~! then i dont know what happened to me. I never talk much but in the other way, i am very happy. Time passes very fast. we are leaving.. and Cheras Yee Yee hop back into her car.. no more joke, no more laughter~~~~ sad.. Nevermind.. Swimming pool Yee Yee is still there! hehe.. i've learnt alot..from her. Then our last destination was Uncle Micheal's territory haha.. he got 2 land and all the houses there belongs to him. we go and have a look at those houses and off we go. i am damn tired and i almost felt asleep in the car. but cannot! i cant bear to lose each single word from swimming pool Yee Yee! hehehe.. And she said she's gonna give me all Jin Jin's (her daughter,my cousin) shirt. i dont care if these are all used clothes. but 1 thing i am sure is.. most of her shirt she wear 2-3 times only. hehe.. all branded.. hahahahha.. then most saddening thing. We went back to Swimming pool's yee yee place and its time to hop back into our car. From a nice car hop back into gen2. like.. the seat is super hard and everything's like taufoo haha. and now i am back. feeling very tired but i cant sleep.. Today is indeed a good day, with mixture of feelings. and today i never miss you. oops! hehe..
just let me kiss you one more time.. and hold your hands.. next time we go play tennis and squash together!!

MooMooDoink ♥
5:49 PM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

MooMooDoink;

Holding you,doesnt mean that i am in love with you
When i dont hold you, doesnt mean that i dont think of you
You and i at this moment....
Have said that we have no destiny to meet again
Yet the next second fate brings us together once more
Even when we are together, face matches but spirits are apart
Apart in different places,frowns are worn day and night
Each busing finding our own true love
But i silently compared you with the one now
And always biased towards your side
Have the heart to love you. but i am unable to love you
Holding you, but not thinking of growing older
Untill the time when we are seperated from each other
Then we will know who is the best
When lose is not possible, the love is more desirable
When holding you, i care for nothing except for you
You and i cannot be solved
What it is between a girl and a boy
That is called the mystery of love
Living alone. Feeling lonely and wanting to hold someone's hand
Living as a couple, who do i truely miss??
When the time comes to seperate
We still hold doubts from each other
And still ask about each other's news?
Cause we are still loving each other.

I love you <3>
i miss you like helll~~

MooMooDoink ♥
10:00 PM

MooMooDoink;

This is specially made for you. Dedicated for you. I dont know whether you read this or even bother to view my blog. From the first day i know you.. i already can feel that you can be a trustworthy person. I followed what decision you made and i respect your decision. Of course, there are lots of rumours between us. But did you, i mean we. bothered about it? i dont think so. I accompanied you when you need me and i spent quite alot of time and money on you. Dont ever think that i've felt in love with you. And the purpose i am writing this is definitely not how regretful on how much i've spent on you and how much time i've waste on you. I am just so blardy disappointed and a lil heart broken. because i've put you in part of my life. Talking about you, do you actually treat me as a friend? i dont think you treated me as a friend all the while. I am just a slave for you. When you need me, you will just approach me. and when you dont need me.. this is what happened now. For you, i am already invincible. right?! I knew your friends are sometimes mean and barbarous..sometimes, i was just trying to test you. i did only 1% of mean thing to you. i was just like boasting and trying to be a lil lanci. and the results was.. you never quarrel with me like what you did to our buddies but you leave me silently. To those people who dont treat you as good as i did, you treat them as good as how i treated you. When they asked you to lend a hand for them. did you once rejected them? I only asked you to do 1 thing. 1 simple thing only! excuses that you gave me are uncountable. it's more than the stars above the sky.Dont you think what you've told me all the time are all rubbish?! I already knew something is wrong when i gave you the cake. Eyes can see. Sense can feel. Dont you think it's sinful on what you did to me? It's so unfair that really affected me. Problems can be solved in a better way. This aint no complain letter from me to you. I was just confessing my feelings. and i dont need any sympathy. i hate fake friends... Patience has a limit. I DONT EVEN CARE NOW IF MY FRIENDS INSULT ME, CRITICISE ME, because i know how's the taste of losing them and i treasure them really much. Treasure them before you lose them all. and before you regret.. and before its too late! i am not saying me okay! think wise before your action. This is the one and only advice for you. If you still dont want to be conscious.. sorry, our friendship will just end here. A fullstop! and i know you dont even mind at all right? who am i?
p/s. i am not the only one who feel bad for you. see people beside you. there are more! just that they did treasure you and they dont even want to say a thing. I wish you good luck and happiness always.

MooMooDoink ♥
10:48 AM

MooMooDoink;

Finally. I've finished my accounts paper. which is the paper that gave me lotsa sickness. especially headache and so on hehe. I didnt really did well in this exam. And this is trial.. i am actually kinda worried. Any how, even today's the day i finished my accounts paper. i am supposed to relax but SPM is still not over yet. i mean.. it's near. so i decided to go tuition. and what i've learnt today was LIFE. which i think it's a must for me to do so. When you are successful in everything doesnt mean that you got happiness. Some people who suffered from poverty arent successful in their life but they have all sorts of happiness. To gain both success and happiness and ofcoz, if you have happiness.. you will have good health. what do you and i have to do is. to have these qualities..
- Do not hate
- Do not lie
- Be moderate
- Be patient
- Do not greed
- Do not cheat ( if you think cheating is some sort of entertainment then you are definitely a psycho)
- Try not to be jealous
- Determination
- Learn how to control your anger
- Smile and made your life one part of smiling and it will lead you to laughter (smile can heal thousands of sickness)
- Be humble
- Do not insult because no one is perfect
- Be trustworthy
- Be confident
- Must have skills ( Learn multi skills )
- More Exposure
- Suitable Qualifications
- Learn more. eg: Practical training like plumbing, electrical etc etc..)
- Care for others is a very important ingredient
- Treat people from the bottom of your heart
- Dont always care for pride
- Do not betray and always be sincere
- More language proficiency
- DO NOT COMPLAIN! haha
Plus a little bit of romance. Perfect isnt it?
All these are from part of literature hehe part of essays and part is from my brains. hahaha. mY homemade words of wisdoms! ( i know it's not )=P but if you have these qualities stated above. You will not face retrenchment or unemployed or whatever. Blissfully and happily enjoying with your life partner. or maybe temporary partner. but which guy would let a perfect girl go? Unless he has found another better ones.
I am now searching for blogskins again! OMG~! i am obsessed with it. very fast.. i am turning to some internet/TVB/blogskins/shopping... aficionado!

MooMooDoink ♥
12:25 AM

Thursday, September 21, 2006

MooMooDoink;

Today was indeed an unlucky day for me. Many unlucky things occured to me. I was like so innocent. I forget to pay my fees and the staff told to other staff that i always pay my fees late and she could regconise me. wth. this is the 2nd time i pay my fees late. When i reach home. sounds like all the bad things that occured to me had went away. I saw my car is fixed with sports rim and it looks so sporty. satisfied with it. and my dad said he's going to tint my the car, change the audio system to a DVD tv audio system? whatever. dont know how to describe, change my seat to leather seat and body kit. We were discussing about this topic and suddenly the unlucky luck came back to me again. Dad said that the myvi will give it to my brother to drive it for around 6 months and i'll take over the waja. sigh. and halfway discussing about car.. in a relief mood, suddenly i think of accounts paper. my heart suddenly turned so heavy and i am extreamly worried about it. Okay. while i am revising accounts. i was too nervous that i just couldnt think of anything. and i almost cry. i even inhale deeply and wanted to shout. This is what we called stress i suppose. And this is what i never experience before. I sort of memorise the format and that;'s it. 6 question and i am only prepared for 2. 4 more questions. i dont know what to do with it. I totally forgot everything about accounts. Due to.. definitely not entertainment. It's that i never touch accounts for decades. I am now extreamly regret and. i must. its a promise to myself. I must learn how to do Document and PP. My heart is still very heavy. It's like the anchor sank into the bottom of the sea. so heavy and you need stength to pull it back up. I tried to destress by watching TVB. but it just doesnt work. the 1st time it doesnt work. this shows that how afraid i am. My current mood are still nervous+worried+sad+regret.. I felt that i am super useless now. sigh. such a failure.

MooMooDoink ♥
10:43 PM

MooMooDoink;

Okay, finally i am able to access to this blardy blogger.Today i am blardy tired and blardy annoyed by Jiayi's Mimi. She lick me, and even bite me. WTH.. anyway. my current mood was bad. i am annoyed and irritated by some.. annoying and irritating people. Why must people out there insult me, look down on me and even critisize me. Am i born to be like that?! I admit that i am sometimes lazy, not fashionable and cool. but doesnt mean that you all can take the advantage to bully me. and now you all made me so competitive. 5 Cerdas look down on me that i couldnt pass my undang. I PASSED with flying colours! XX said i sure couldnt make it. and i made it! WARNING! If you guys out there challenge me. Not only losing my anger. i will fight back and show you my best and make you lose with pride. This is my commitment to you. You guys are just hurting me so badly. You know dignity?!
I think i should watch a couple or two TVB series to chill.. TVB is still the best. my best friend. my best comfort-ter. and its definitely my oxygen. without TVB. i will surely die. See.. once i mentioned TVB. i forget all my problems. you rocks! you are soo HOT!

MooMooDoink ♥
12:29 AM

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

MooMooDoink;

Sigh, Science paper today. What i studied yesterday didnt really came out in paper 2. All depends on my concentration.. well, just pray for paper 1 now. I actually wrote this after i finished doing my paper 2. 40 minutes left.haha.. It was so lame that they gave us 2 hours and 30 minutes for this paper. Waste of time. Since i have plenty of time now. I shall list out what I'd like to do after SPM. hehe.. Tomorrow's history paper.. Bah! Just forget about it. Just too eager for SPM to finish.
-No more school life. Especially Form6. I'd rather go for A level.
-No more school uniform with my hair tied. Gosh,sucks man. It just doesnt suits me at all.
-No more waking up 6.45pm in the morning and do all the rushing to school. I mean. no more being punished for being late. hehe
-I shall throw all my refference and text books away. Oops! should recycle! ' think before you throw'! Neway, those books used up lots of space and looks untidy!
-No more school shoes! It would be only slippers,sports shoes,shopping shoes or maybe high heels. This i know it's a must for me.
-Anti lala.Why am i writing this? haha. nothing related with what i want to do after SPM.
-Reaching 18 in less than a year. It's about approximately 10 more months to go hahaha..
-I can drive around freely.. here and there.. with my own car.. ngek ngek!! No more buses!!!
-Rave,clubbing,parties... It's a must for me. must must must! even countdown?!
-Trips with friends and to ensure that i will turn tanner..
-Must have all the funs and joys during college life. and ofcoz. the last day of SPM will be filled with joy.
-I shall get a good cam mobile phone which i crave for... almost 1 year!! now, no matter how. i must get one. so i can fulfill my beautiful blog with beautiful photos
-Shopping till the max. and to ensure that i'll have a better face. or whatever it is..
-I shall cut my hair short. hmm.. maybe just shoulder length.. and dye it!
-I shall be hotter and tanner and own a slimmer body with a perfect body figure bluek!!! Just being too competitive these days. Those who say i cannot. i'll show them my best!! sounds like.. a whatever it is.. hahaha
-I shall grab some guys. ok! loyal. 1 guy will do.. hehe.. Sorry for rejecting again. i dont mean it. * winks *

Aiks! 1 hours plus of driving today. tiring.. dizzy... my driving skills went.=( have to practice!!!! okays. shall go and rest..

MooMooDoink ♥
6:32 PM

Monday, September 18, 2006

MooMooDoink;

BambO0ooO!! Today is Monday. Monday blue! It's 3.50 now and yet i still havent change my uniform. in short, i havent do what i plan to do. Argh! thanks to the obstacles. Better not list all out if not i would turn to some grandmother's story blog. haha Thinking back of today's add maths paper. i felt a lil regret of paying for tuition but i know nothing about it. i mean. i felt so sorry for myself. so later. i've decided to study. hehe.. During add maths paper. ofcoz, i dont know how to do most of the questions. so i slept. i day dream and i plan for the future haha.i draw and i 'blog' on my table. I sounds so happy when everyone asked me how was my add maths. Damn. should have gave them a solumn and sad face. hehe. Back home, Jiayi insist of shaving my eyebrown for me. i mean. in msn.. my god. she sounds so fierce. nevermind. i dont care hahaha.. and.. the series dragon love. i've been downloading for 4-5 days. its actually in manderin!! now i have to find a cantonese one. so hard man.. damn sad . Okay! i leave a message in the forum and see which kind hearted people would like to share the cantonese version one for me.Watched beautiful cooking as well. so farny. ian and i laugh our ass out. Jiayi was so bad. EXTREAMLY BAD. you know. i know what she did to me hhahaha.. Kary burned the kitchen down when she was half way cooking. other contestant was laughing at her. forgot whats that model's name. hehe.. Yes! Download the final. Final of this entertainment show. Okie. i am really tired. I shall sleep now. then bath then eat my dinner. then study. then i'll meet you again my dearest computer. muackz..

MooMooDoink ♥
3:52 PM