Today was indeed an unlucky day for me. Many unlucky things occured to me. I was like so innocent. I forget to pay my fees and the staff told to other staff that i always pay my fees late and she could regconise me. wth. this is the 2nd time i pay my fees late. When i reach home. sounds like all the bad things that occured to me had went away. I saw my car is fixed with sports rim and it looks so sporty. satisfied with it. and my dad said he's going to tint my the car, change the audio system to a DVD tv audio system? whatever. dont know how to describe, change my seat to leather seat and body kit. We were discussing about this topic and suddenly the unlucky luck came back to me again. Dad said that the myvi will give it to my brother to drive it for around 6 months and i'll take over the waja. sigh. and halfway discussing about car.. in a relief mood, suddenly i think of accounts paper. my heart suddenly turned so heavy and i am extreamly worried about it. Okay. while i am revising accounts. i was too nervous that i just couldnt think of anything. and i almost cry. i even inhale deeply and wanted to shout. This is what we called stress i suppose. And this is what i never experience before. I sort of memorise the format and that;'s it. 6 question and i am only prepared for 2. 4 more questions. i dont know what to do with it. I totally forgot everything about accounts. Due to.. definitely not entertainment. It's that i never touch accounts for decades. I am now extreamly regret and. i must. its a promise to myself. I must learn how to do Document and PP. My heart is still very heavy. It's like the anchor sank into the bottom of the sea. so heavy and you need stength to pull it back up. I tried to destress by watching TVB. but it just doesnt work. the 1st time it doesnt work. this shows that how afraid i am. My current mood are still nervous+worried+sad+regret.. I felt that i am super useless now. sigh. such a failure.
