Carmen lim.. you are being too competitive these days.. the angel side of CLKM says..everyone have their own talent and skills..  god is very fair.the devil side of CLKM says..We have to learn more. The person who get all the benefits is me! so so.. who can tell me which is the right way? okay okay, i just want to win and show to others that i am not useless.. But how many i can compete? there are so many people out there which is better than me 100000 times.. who to compete? driving me crazy..Another story... ( nothing is related with the above one, just lazy to post another one )Sky is right. why should i always follow people steps? and follow in whatever decision they made? silly right? When people around me are sad or having problems. why should i accompany them when they dont even bother me when i am having problems. Why should i do something stupid with people to entertain them when they dont even want to entertain me when i need some entertainment. why should i do everything to satisfied them when they dont even help me a lil.. why should i follow them when they dont even bother to follow one of my steps. and why should i listen to them when they dont even listen to me?!
Sky: Do whatever you want and make whatever decision you want. Why do you have to follow people and make life so sad. When you dont feeling like doing it. Dont do. When you felt like doing it but all my friends are not willing. Do it as long as you think you are happy. Do whatever that make you happy but not your friends who control your destiny.
Me: Sigh, it takes time.