i dont really have the mood to post about the PD trip now. so i will postponed to tomorrow. 
well im not really emo or having pms now.
i just wanna say, what's in my mind for the whole day is.
Dont Despair. yes carmen. dont despair. 
one day, you wont be denied.
'' Night after night I hear myself say 
Why can't this feeling just fade away 
There's no one like you 
You speak to my heart  
It's such a shame we're worlds apart 
I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose 
But sooner or later I gotta choose 
And once again I'm thinking about 
Taking the easy way out ''
So should i let you go? Can you tell me?
i miss the happy times with you. but i dont want to see the awkward situation.
Once i asked God, he told me,
Carmen, Dont despair. Your good times will come after that. just bear with it.
How long would it be?
How can i change the world, my destiny, my faith with my pair of hands? Can i?
where is my devined love? i am always the forfeited ones.
.... sigh ....
Bye bye.